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The dog is still performing heriocally on three legs with cancer.  It’s been more than a month now and all pain medication has ceased. He is glowing, youthful and full of energy.   I am aware that there is little to no chance that the cancer hasn’t metasized into other parts of the body, but I’m hoping it’s camping out in a far off node in his body and plans to stay still.  This does, however, have me on high alert to any signs of it spreading.   I think any of his reactions are signs of the cancer.   His head has been cocked to the side a lot recently, and of course I thought the cancer got there too.  Rather, he just had a tick in his ear.  I need to take a relaxative.

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Animals calm you. They give you something to do when you’re bored. They take on the reaction that you want them to. If you’re happy, then so are they. If you’re pensive then they oddly look like that too. My best friends, my partner, my family, we are all animal people. Animal lovers attract other animal lovers.

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Relief on My Part

Deep breath in, hold it, and let it out.  This was my {big} sigh of relief that I made the correct decision.

The vet said Duncan had a maximum of six more months to live.  Well, one week lasted after he was diagnosed with osteosarcoma and I couldn’t stand seeing him stoically bear his pain in his eyes and not even be able to put down the tumorous leg.  So I made the decision for amputation.  The surgery was five days ago and he is getting around beautifully.

He is already running, he’s pain-free and can use the bathroom with no problem.  He can’t do steps yet, but he is doing great for a 100+ lb dog with out his fourth leg.

 I’m so happy with my decision.  I couldn’t bear seeing that leg anymore.  Most importantly, now when  I look into his eyes I see a smiling, panting, interested dog, not one that is trying to bear the most painful thing in the world on his own shoulders.  He looks youthful and has a glowing presence on three-legs.

The vet told me this wouldn’t resolve the cancer, but it would be a 100 percent pain fix.  I still can’t help but pray for the miracle that the cancer didn’t enter his bloodstream yet.  I needed to get the leg off to at least give the it a chance. 

Go ahead God, he’s all yours.  Do your thing… fix my dog.

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Three-Legged Dog

Four days after diagnosis, I already couldn’t stand watching the tumorous, slowly exploding bone in my dog’s leg break and cause so much pain from osteosarcoma.  Duncan is now 107 lbs, down from his usual overweight 115.  The vet initially discouraged amputation because of his mass, but it seems like he is not using the bad leg anyway. 

The surgery was yesterday and so far the recovery has surpassed my expectations.  My three-legged wonder is walking, using the bathroom and going down stairs with no trouble.  I am already seeing confirmation that the amputation will give his last months a pain-free and meaningful existence.  I know this isn’t a life-saving measure, but I can’t help but wonder if this will at least give a miracle a chance.

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I found out last week that my dog is dying from osteosarcoma in his hind leg. I grieve for my four-legged yellow 115 lb lab-looking ball of sunshine. I curl myself up at night, just like him, on the floor and bury my head into his soft coat. I take a deep breath and inhale his familiar unique scent. And then I cry. I bawl as I think I will no longer be able to smell him. I am rock-bottom sad. So effected in fact that I no longer enjoy myself around him.

That was last week. For four days I did this. Monk’s actions have been saintly. He let’s me cry on his shoulder, soothes me when I break down at odd times, and sleeps near me. Kind of like the dog himself. My inners ache with the feeling of losing a family member to cancer. I wonder if it’s the same with a human? But I notice I ache the most when I see his pain. When he’s laying motionless on the couch, staring straight forward, unable to sleep. A dull, constant resounding pain through his body can be seen by looking into his eyes. I love this dog and he is slipping away from me quickly. Too early and there is nothing I can do about it.

After the initial days of straight grieving, I realize I have to shape up. I am lucky, a lot of dog owners lose their pets with no warning signs. I must play when he plays, swim in the river with him while he still can, and devote my time to making the rest of his life meaningful and happy. He would and has done it for me in a heart beat.

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